Iman pasang surut, how it's gonna end up ?

assalamualaikum..

what ? this second getting close to 2nd april already ?

masa berlalu sangatlah pantas right ? macam baru semalam je aku tinggalkan sekolah. fine, statement ni statement klise artis malaysia. ooppss !  and it was one of the sign yang kiamat dah semakin hampir. so, agak-agak bekalan dah cukupkah ??

erm , jawapannya memang taklah for me. hidup 20 tahun as Astie Raina Suyarto. but then hari yang lepas-lepas solat ntah kemana-mana. so, siapa nak jawab semua tu kalau bukan diri sendirikan ? rasa menyesal memang bukan kepalang. it's like i spend my whole life with nothing worthy especially as a muslim. before ni, macam .... actually bukan macam, tapi memang masuk telinga kiri keluar telinga kanan bila dengar 'solat tu tiang agama'. time tu macam tak relate je. sedar memang sedar, dah tak solat ni surelah dosa bertimbun-timbun. pakai tudung tapi tak solat. so hipokrit ! i knew it sound sensitive to those girl because she knew that was wrong cuma tak nak mengaku kesalahan sendiri. that's why they try to avoid when people talk about it. and actually i do so before. 

tapi when time goes by, i realize that i've to change. kata Farah Lee, change is not easy. yes ! i admit it. from c to b, from b to a and from a to a+ you need to sacrifice a lots of mellow things. 

and i still struggling with it...

last few days, i was read this article in this metro sabah edition. actually its not a formal article but more to a column that provided anyone that have any question about islam or something in it to being ask with the expert. so, mula-mula tu belek-belek and tak interest pun nak baca. but dont know why, someday tu nak baca pulak. baca punya baca, then i diam, think and relate. 

so, the question is .. iman kita kekadang pasang surut. bila penat, malas nak solat. bila mengantuk, it being as an excuses untuk tinggal solat. so, how its gonna end up ??

mungkin ada yang dah tahu, mungkin jugak yang tak tahu or dah lupa sebab dah lama tinggal sekolah. masa belajar subjek agama islam dulu je bukan main score. bila dah caio, everything gone. macam i lah. ingat-ingat lupa. actually, solat diwahyukan masa malam israk mikraj kepada rasulullah saw sebanyak 50 kali then lepas tu baru dikurangkan kepada 5 kali sehari. cuba kita bayangkan kalau we have to deal with 50 time a day ? mampu tak ? adalah kes meroyan tak tengok sinetron 'putri yang ditukar' , 'little star' , ' bella calaminades' , what else ??? a lots ..... tapi, ALLAH tetap baik dengan hambanya sebab even kita solat just 5 kali sehari. kita tetap dapat rewards pahala sebanyak solat 50 kali sehari. ohsem kan ? so, ada excuses lagi kah nak tinggal solat ?

but then, paling buat i tersentak kejap bila baca artikel tu was this....

" pada hari kiamat, mereka yang dahulunya di dunia tidak bersujud ( solat ) kepada ALLAH secara sengaja tanpa uzur, mereka tidak mampu bersujud kepadaNYA berserta orang islam lain "

meremang bulu roma bila pikiaq. did i will be the one worst person among them ??

lets change !